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by yours truly, wei shan.


Change, one of the scariest leap of faiths. Looking back on an article of me in one of the Sunway College’s magazine, it made me realised how much different of a person I am today. 

Before pursuing a degree in Bsc (Hons) in Accounting and Finance, I was pursuing a Bachelors Degree in Business Studies and in fact, I finished my first year. At that point, the subjects lined up for us were a mixture of everything, from marketing and management to accounting and finance. With this, I noticed my enthusiasm and curiosity for subjects that involved number and money. At a point in my life, I was doubting my degree choice. 

I thought of switching course frequently throughout my first year and pushed the idea of it to the back of my mind as I was afraid of change. Plus, the other concerns such as prerequisites, scholarships and credit transfers were too much for me to handle at that moment. Besides, transferring to a degree course where I have zero foundation in, everyone including my program leader said I was crazy! However, towards the end of my first year, a tiny voice in me told me “its now or never”, and that was when I decided to took up the courage and made the change happen. 

Right now, I am currently entering the last semester of my second year. The syllabus were more difficult and foreign to me as I had zero foundation in accounting or finance. The transition was tough, having few friends (and study buddies) in my class, I had to solely depend on my own effort to revise, inquire lecturers and seek for help when I need it. Many times, I've broke down and cried a little, but every time I managed to pick myself up and motivated myself to keep pushing through. 

Today, I would say that this was the best decision I've made for myself as it opened more doors and opportunities for me. Instead of studying for the sake of a degree qualification and hoping for the best in my future and career, I have a direction and goal to study and work towards now. Prepping myself with the knowledge of accounting and finance, it benefited me in terms of my personal and professional development. Now, I can proudly say, I study hard and work hard for myself and my future. My goals and directions are much more clearer today, and I am glad I took a leap of faith and gave into the tiny voice in my head. 












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Hi guys! 🌻

This post is going to be a little personal where I dive into my journey of self-love. So if you want to know me on a more intimate level, read on! This is my first time being so transparent about my journey to self-love and self-discovery 🌻 everything that I'm about to say is raw and from the heart // ps its midnight so I'm probably the most vulnerable at this moment, sOooOoOoo 

here we go.

//

First things first, if you don't know this about me, I've been depending on others throughout my entire life, whether it means depending on them for my happiness, or just clinging onto them 24/7; I would go to the extend of calling my friends at 3am just so I wouldn't feel lonely (shoutout to my pillar of supports, ily!!) I love being around people and be the centre of attention, I enjoy spending all my time and energy with my friends and family. 


Actually this wasn't an issue at that point in life, because I'm a people pleaser and a ball of positivity; one second I can be all serious having a heart to heart talk with you and the next second I can put a smile on your face (even tears, because I'm funny, just kidding pfftt~) Let's just say I love being around people, and people love being around me. My extrovert self enjoyed such companion and attention, I felt like I didn't need to spend time with myself. This eventually became my habit and nature; the loud extroverted pisces who loves spending every second with people. 

// 

Then, everything changed. 

People started leaving; and I started hurting. And that was when it all turned into a downward spiral. I never felt such feelings before. Emptiness and loneliness, both were really foreign to 18 year old wei shan. And damn did it hit me hard; I was feeling my utterly worst, hurting myself and the people around me, isolating myself and my thoughts from people, crying myself to sleep, having the need to take a break from "people" because I needed to cry, but the worst part is, putting on a fake smile to everyone around me. 


And that was truly, the worst I've experienced; acting normal as if I'm not hurting and struggling deep down, prioritising other people's happiness instead of my own mental health. The pain consumed me, and I no longer am the optimistic ball of fluff I used to be. 

I changed, into a person so alien, I couldn't even recognise myself. 

Episodes of depression and self-hatred consumed me for a year almost two; as time passed, I didn't want to express myself to anyone anymore, I didn't want to talk to anyone about my problems anymore, worrying that it would take up too much of their time and put an extra weight on their shoulder. 

With that, I carried the weight of my pain and struggles all by myself, often bottling up my emotions and thoughts, hoping it will go away. And tbh after seeking for my friends and peers for help, I actually preferred handling my personal and mental "problems" by myself as its not easy explaining my "problems", and its even worse for my friends to understand what I am going through. 


I just wanted to be alone. 

Little did I noticed, this battle I struggled so much, was actually an adventure to find myself. An adventure where I would do things that I love, prioritising me and my mental health above pleasing everyone else. I started fighting my battles on my own, I started depending on myself and learning to tell myself "hey, its alright, take your time!", "hey, you're doing great!". "go easy on yourself, you are only human!"

Little by little, 
I started accepting myself, 
I started living for myself,
and most importantly,
I started loving myself. 


That was what I needed all along; self love and self acceptance.

I needed my own space and time to grow; to be comfortable with being by myself; 
to love myself. 

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Now, I can truly mean it when I say, "I love myself". And let me tell you, this feeling is so euphoric, only you yourself can feel and enjoy it. Because it is you who fought through thick and thin, it is you who stood up every time you fell down, it is you who kept your chin up during hardships; and it is you who got exclusive first-class passes to see your own self-grow journey 🌻

Take all the time you need to discover and accept yourself; 
one day, self love will find its way to you 🌻

xoxo, weishan 🌻

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"there's always a rainbow at the end of every rain" 





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Hello guys! 🌻

I'm here to update on my skin condition after receiving the laser treatment for my acne scars with one doc medical! In total, I have received 4 prolaser treatments with one doc medical! 

To give you guys a refresher, I have done the prolaser treatment for my acne scars with one doc medical in early January, and as of today, I have finished my 4 prolaser treatments! ps: my skin condition right now is not 100% clear and acne free as laser treatments require longer time to see the full results! 

Also, before continue reading this, it would be recommended if you guys take a look at my previous post talking about my first experience on the laser treatment as well as the condition of my face before the treatment! click here to read! 🌻

Okay! So lets move on to the progress with my following treatments! 🌻 
ps: take note that the foundation mentioned below is the Missha The Original Tension Pact Intense Moisture! 

First Treatment - 04/01/2019
First treatment took a little slower to show the results, break outs were still as frequent as before treatment. However, the scars and redness were still obvious, I would say there was just a 10% improvement mainly at my temple area after the first treatment. And tbh I was quite worried as I did not see any drastic improvements on my cheek areas. 😫

left view - no foundation || right view - no foundation 

left view - with foundation || right view (sorta) - with foundation


Second Treatment - 25/01/2019
The second treatment showed a more promising result in terms of reduced redness! My cheeks weren't super red like before! 🤩 and after the 2nd treatment I've noticed I had lesser breakouts 🤩 However, towards the end of the 2nd treatment (and into my 3rd treatment), my face was breaking out and was red again (I did not take any picture because I was insecure and busy until I've neglected on the pictures, so all the pictures below are before the breakouts!) 😖 but I was positive it was all the chinese new year food as well as the stress from studies 😤 


BEFORE IT STARTED BREAKING OUT 
left view - no foundation || right view - no foundation 

left view - with foundation || right view - with foundation

Third Treatment - 27/02/2019
The third treatment showed the best results to me! I personally feel like the third treatment given to me was also the best out of the 4 treatments, maybe because I was super tired after my papers so I literally slept and relaxed throughout the whole session 🤭 at this point, the acne scars and redness were reduced, there were lesser breakouts, but there were just remaining stubborn scars 😖 and sometimes, with the right lighting, my skin looked clear! 🤩 

okay here are the pictures I mentioned about "having clear skin" 😹 
ps: there was no foundation applied! 

left view - no foundation || right view - no foundation 

left view - with foundation || right view (sorta) - with foundation 

Fourth Treatment - 16/03/2019
The fourth treatment is also my last treatment (for now, I'm not sure whether I will continue in the future, but for now I'm stopping) as for me to continue the laser treatment is way beyond my budget! 😖 and also because I am quite satisfied with the results eventhough it wasn't a 100% clear skin 😋 ps: there is no "with foundation" shot as it has just been one day after the 4th treatment! And the last picture under this section was literally taken a few hours ago 🤭

RIGHT AFTER 4TH TREATMENT! 
left view - no foundation || right view - no foundation 

DAY 1 AFTER 4TH TREATMENT! 
left view - no foundation || right view - no foundation 


Comparison and Results Side by Side
Okay, so here are the side by side comparisons of my face condition that I guess you guys would be interested in 🤩 

left view: before (left 24/12/2018) and after (right 17/03/2019) 4 times of treatment! 🤩

right view: before (left 24/12/2018) and after (right 17/03/2019) 4 times of treatment! 🤩


These pictures below are progression pictures side by side after every prolaser treatment! From left to right: (1) after the first treatment - 06/01/2019, (2) after the second treatment - 01/02/2019, (3) after the third treatment - 03/03/2019 and (4) after the fourth treatment - 17/03/2019 🤩🌻

left view of my face 

right view of my face


Overall Thoughts?
I've gained my confidence back once again, not needing to cover my face all the time with my hair or hand (when I take pictures hahaa) 😝 Although I don't have the smooth 100% scar free skin I once had in my carefree days, I am still really happy and satisfied with the way my skin looks like right now 🤩💕 the redness has reduced so much and my breakouts had lessen (of course I will still break out especially during my pms phrase and during my menstruation period, as well as when I eat unhealthy food such as oily fried food and junk food 😖) 

Experience with One Doc Medical?
I went to One Doc Medical in USJ 10 Taipan branch! The service at One Doc Medical was top notch, everything was professionally done, from the cleansing of face to the laser treatment and masking! Their beauticians, doctors and staffs were really friendly and concerning 🤩 they often advised me on things to do to take care of my face, they would also whatsapp me to check up on how my face was doing after the first treatment! Also, they would send a whatsapp message as a reminder the day before the appointment! ☺️ 

Would I go back?
I would go back for their normal facial or other non-laser treatment due to their professional service! And I would also go back for the same laser treatment if I find it necessary (like if my face starts scarring again or gets worse?) in the future, given if I had the budget to spend hahaa! 🤑 since I'm not earning a fixed income, the price to continue the laser treatments would be too expensive for me 😭💔 overall, the money I've spent on this treatment was worth it! And if you guys want to try it out, I'd say go and contact One Doc Medical at their ig page at @onedocmedical or go visit them at your nearest branch! 

If you guys have any questions or doubts do message me on my instagram @leongweishannn! Thank you for reading and happy recovery guys! 🌻💕

xoxo,
weishan 🌻




















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Hey guys! I'm here to share on my first experience with @dahmakan! 

So as some of you may already know, I'm a full time student and a part time dancer! So it could be really hard sometimes for me to plan my meal or decide what to eat with a busy schedule especially on days where I have school in the morning/afternoon and dance at night 😫 I always choose to stay back in my university and eat out during those days, and this would really give me a big dilemma on what to eat as the options around my campus are not cheap and are slightly on the unhealthy side 🤭 plus it is really time consuming for me to walk out of campus, choose a restaurant, order, wait for my food, eat and walk back to campus (when I could be studying or doing my assignments in the library) 😖 

I recently tried dahmakan for the first time and it helped me save my time, satisfied my tummy and lessened my stress on deciding where to eat! If you guys didn't know, dahmakan is a food delivery service that delivers a variety of delicious food prepared by their 5-star chefs right to your doorstep! They even came up with their new low carbs and high protein meals! 🤤 So for the health cautious people, dahmakan is the delivery service for you! 🤤 you can also order your meals in advance so you wouldn't need to worry about what to eat on the next day (well this is what I did heh)! 😱 





The meal that I ordered was the Herb Crusted Salmon Fillet with lemon cream sauce and mash potato! 🤤 as a salmon and potato lover, this was the perfect meal combination for my dinner! The mash potatoes gave me the energy to dance heh! It was a well-balanced meal! Besides that, their portion of food was super generous, there was a fair amount of sides as well as mains. The salmon was super "thicc"(unlike some restaurants where they only give super "thin" pieces of salmons 😤). And also, I'm super impressed that my meal was delivered straight to my university hot! This shows that their food was prepared not long before delivery! Overall, my ratings for the meal is a 8 out of 10! The 2 points went to the insufficient serving of the lemon cream sauce as it was too good that I finished it halfway through my meal 🤭 

Overall, I would definitely use dahmakan again as it is super delicious, convenient and efficient! Also there is a wide variety of choices for me to choose from and also there are many promotion on the app! 🤑 and also, do apply my promo code: BETASTYF7421 to get 50% off your first purchase! That is up to RM20 off! So i highly recommend you all to try dahmakan for yourself! Great food, great service and great deals!! What are you waiting for? 😜


xoxo,
wei shan 🌻






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Hello guys! 

This is my first time doing any sort of facial or treatments, so i went into this expecting nothing but the overall experience as well as pain and results. I was quite interested in trying out facials and laser treatment for quite some time as my skin condition has been the worst with my cheeks swarming with acnes and acne scars. 😭 I tried all sorts of acne products and home remedies, still there wasn't a drastic improvement on my acnes. Thus, resulting me in opting for laser treatments. Here is the condition of my face for the past few months 🤐 The condition of my face got so bad as I was studying so hard and stressing over my finals and studies 🤕 *inserts photos of my face at its worst condition  👇🏻* 

left view (sunblock applied)


right view (sunblock applied)
front view (sunblock applied)

 
left and right view (applied sunblock)

left and right view (nothing applied on face)


After doing some research, I chose One Doc Medical. I first heard of One Doc Medical from my friends, and later from influencers and from the people I follow on instagram. I messaged their instagram account at @onedocmedical to inquire about their on-going RM199 promotion for their Signature Medical Facial 4 steps treatment. They immediately contacted me through Whatsapp asking about my concerns, my preferred One Doc branch and other information. I then booked an appointment with them. 


I chose to go to the Taipan Subang outlet as it was nearest to my home. They first asked me to fill a form up about my personal information. During consultation, the aesthetician advised me that the Signature Medical Facial did not suit my skin condition. However, I was suggested to do the pro-laser treatment which includes of 4 steps as well - extraction, pro-laser treatment, Signature Nano OxyFacial and masking. I was suggested this treatment as my acne scars are caused by internal factors such as stress and hormones, rather than external factors such as bacteria or usage of wrong products. The treatment took around 2 hours, including consultation. 

For pricing wise, this treatment is originally priced at RM800 per treatment, but its RM499 for first trials. There were packages for this pro-laser treatment as best results are to be seen after 3 to 4 treatments. The package suggested to me was the RM1,888 package inclusive of 4 pro-laser treatments. 

My first experience was rather relaxing and painless (besides extraction 😭). They first double cleansed my face, then brought me to the consultion room for consultation, explaining the procedures and pricing for the treatment I'll be receiving. Soon after, they started the extraction of my pimples and blackheads, which was super pain (note that my pain tolerance is really low). Then they started with the laser, where they went through my whole face twice. The laser treatment was painless, but there was a slight warm heat of the lasers. They showed me the condition of my face after the laser to show me the difference of my left (lasered) and right (not yet lasered) face. Later on, it continued with their Signature Nano OxyFacial where they used an airbrush-like tool to rejuvenate my dry skin 🤭. It gave off a cooling sensation which was quite ticklish but enjoyable for me 😹 Lastly, they applied a sheet mask for me to hydrate my face and allowed me to relax for around 30 minutes (I'm not sure how long this took but it felt like 30 minutes to me haha!)

After the facial treatment, I was brought into the consultation room again for further explanation on the pricing and packages. The aesthetician also explained and showed me where the results had shown on my face. After asking my concerned questions, I made payment and booked my next appointment 🤩. Then I was given some cream and their sample sized cleanser, toner, moisturiser and sunblock. 


After the first treatment, there wasn't a significant results of a clear skin (of course), but I noticed that the redness of my face has decreased and that my face felt clean. Overall, my face just felts clean and soft! Here is how my face looks like after the treatment! 👇🏻 

left view after first treatment

right view after first treatment

left view after 24 hours of treatment 

right view after 24 hours of treatment

Experience wise, One Doc Medical definitely took care of me well with their good service! Besides the decreased in redness and cleaned face, my acne scars are still there. I understand that this laser treatment would not show results overnight, therefore I will be continuing updating on my skin condition after a few more trips to One Doc to do similar laser treatments. 😙 stay tune! 

xoxo, 
wei shan 🌻

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Hi guys! So I have been dancing since 9 years old when I picked dancing as my primary school's extra-curriculum. I loved every moment and experience just performing and dancing on stage. So the journey continues and grows until the dancer I am today. 🤩


I've started dancing in primary school where I performed on stage with my classmates and schoolmates. When I was younger, I dance to perform as I was always a very out-going kid. Here are some (not so) embarrassing pictures of me in primary school smh 🤣  ps: i didn't have much pictures of me performing as a kid sooooo 




Okay, then I went to high school and started learning dance from my beloved teacher, Sim Li, in Dance World Taipan with a few of my friends from high school. It was kinda spontaneous of me joining, maybe due to peer pressure at that time who knows? 🤷🏻‍♂️ I was there for around 4 to 5 years. I definitely learnt a lot there. I learnt how to choreograph, perform, compete and dance for examinations. 

I remember we used to have an annual dinner performance where we perform. Well, at that time I don't even know how to apply simple makeup and do my hair as a performer 🤣 I used to rely so much on my teacher for makeup and hair hahaa! 




Besides performing, I also competed in NATD competitions. In 2014, I only went to compete as a group (because I have zero confidence in doing solo) and got 1st place 🤩 That marks my first time competing in the dance scene, gained many experience and confidence afterwards 😎

 

  


Afterwards I stopped attending dance classes as I had to sit for my SPM (I was really sad thooo). But soon after SPM, I went back to attending classes and joined my second dance competition, this time in the solo and group category! And I got 1st place for both categories! 🤩





Besides performing and competing, I also went for dance exams held by NATD and am currently at National Award 3 level. With this achievement, I left Dance World in order to explore and gain new experiences in the dance scene! I was quite satisfied with the achievements I have gotten and felt that I maximised my knowledge and experience in Dance World, thus resulting in me leaving Dance World and exploring other dance studios. 😋




Meanwhile, I was also performing for different events for my friends, relatives as a group and as an individual. For group dances, I used to perform K-Pop dances (whaat ikrr 😹) like BTS, IOI, BlackPink etc, with my high school friends. *inserts some really swag dancing pictures 👇🏻* 

 performed for my uncle's event 

performed for BAC's prom night


performed for my high school's Hari Kemerdekaan 

So moving on to after I left Dance World, I went to Mustang Dance Academy MDA (well I joined when it was still Mustang Dance Studio omg). What made me join MDA at that time was because of the idea of them recording and posting videos on their own YouTube channel, which I thought at the moment if I were to be in the videos, I could gain exposure and include it in my portfolio as well (just in case I want to do a dance related job). I did my research and registered myself for classes. It started with me going to only girl style and hip hop classes as I was not aware of the different styles in the dance scene, but slowly, I adventured other styles like street jazz, urban choreography, house etc. Here are just some of videos I was included for MDA's class video shoot 🤑 - Attention, Shady Wit Me, Lights On, Feel Something, Either Way, Pay Me, With You (0:53), Do You?, etc. 

Afterwards, I also joined a girl dancing group under Mustang created by Sue Yin (my girl style teacher) called AASY, which stands for anak-anak Sue Yin 🤣 



Not long afterwards, I joined my first ever group dance showcase held by Next Ground Malaysia in 2018, with Skr Skr! 🤙🏻 




Other than the groups I've joined, I was also given many opportunities to earn some money and gain more dancing experience out of the studio. I taught, choreographed and lead some dance classes throughout 2018. This gave me an insight on how dancers earn a living, be it as part time or full time. For me, it isn't that simple keeping up with this lifestyle due to the constant rehearsals and struggles remembering the steps for the performance, thus I still choose to do this as a part time thing whenever I'm available and free 😋

first performance show with Pink Fong and Astro

first flashmob show with Mustang for Kurnia and AmBank 

first ever commercial show out of the state (Melacca) 

flash mob show 

flash mob performance for Sunway College

flash mob show with AASY 

AASY's first performance for RT17G

first ever advertisement shooting for IsoPlus Indonesia 

and many more!!

Overall, I am truly blessed for the experiences and knowledge I gained throughout my 10 years (plus minus) of dancing. I love dancing so much and would never stop expressing myself through dance 🤑 never did I expect that I would be able to come this far in dance, but I am so blessed to have met many amazing dancers along my dance journey, and the people who gave me the opportunity to perform and do dance shows. 💓 also, do show some love on my dance account on instagram where I post experiences and videos of my dance journey --> instagram.com/weixshann ! 

xoxo, 
wei shan 🌻




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